Sunday, September 21, 2008

long over due update...

Well, it has been over seven weeks since everything. I would say seven long weeks, but honestly, time has been flying by. It feels like just yesterday Sean was right by my side. The girls and I miss him beyond words. People say it gets better, but lately everything has been a bit overwhelming. He is really not coming back. I am thankful I still have my friends here by my side everyday, not a day goes by that someone does not stop and see the girls and I. I have said this before, but I don't know what I would do without them! Still trying to stay busy, still working, still getting out and about... The girls are doing great! Ella is transitioning into the terrible twos, thats for sure! Addie loves to talk about Sean everyday. This past week was family week at school for her, so I was a little worried about that, but she took it quite well~ It was a little hard for me--as the kids had made a chart showing how many people were in each their family and Addie's name was under the "3 in our family" section. I still like to think that their are 4 people in our family, so that was a kick in the butt I would have to say!
I have been going over a lot of stuff and I am trying to figure out a plan so that I am able to go back to college this winter. I am hoping to go for my bachelors in nursing! I have learned so much throughout Sean's journey, that I would love to be one of the lovely nurses who I know helped us so much. A year ago, I would say no way to something like this, but gone through everything Sean and I have been through, I feel I can do anything! It is definitely going to be a bit of a juggle--school, work, kids, friends... but I NEED to do it! I am looking forward to it and hopefully it will be a much needed distraction for me.
No big plans for us here in the near future, but I am hoping to take a vacation sometime soon-- i need one. Thanks everyone for sticking by my side! I love you all!
~nicole~

Friday, September 12, 2008

SEAN SHIELDS MEMORIAL MUD RUN: PHOTOS~PART TWO!!!


where did all this mud come from you ask?

yup--i sure do know how to drive what the big boys do!

good job amber!!! i knew you could take big josh down on your own!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

SEAN SHIELDS MEMORIAL MUD RUN: PHOTOS~PART ONE!!!

Sorry it took so long for the photos!! Here are a few to start with--more coming soon!!

Sean and I have the greatest friends--I am sure you can tell from this photo!
Don't know what I would do without them!

SEAN'S JEEP!!!
(yeah--thats me driving! as mel says: "watch out wossie boys" :)!

ummmmm.... ouch.
ok--so they are not nice allllll the time!
(thanks kieth, i really needed that.)

GO MEL! it sure does take a girl...

AND THE BEAUTY PAGEANT WINNERS ARE...
nikki~dan~amber~kara
(wow-- i know people tell me i have a big mouth, but i guess it's confirmed!)

That is just a few~ I am definitely going to post more soon!

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

THANK YOU ALL SOOOOOO MUCH!!!

Mud run was Saturday and it was unbelievable! There was a huge turn out--everything was perfect only if Sean were there... The boys got the Jeep going, so I was able to attempt the mud pit- I didn't make it to far in though-- all well, always next year for that! It was a blast, after I had got the Jeep stuck in the middle of the mud pit, Kieth decided to pull me out of the Jeep and throw me into the mud pit. Wow, was that fun and dirty : )! Sean sure as heck was a great friend to so many and I could not stop thinking about him the whole time. We were still able to have a great time though and hanging out with everyone there made it feel like Sean was right there with us. I cannot thank the Deater's (and Rollston's) enough for this weekend. I wish there was something I could do for you all for putting this together! Kelly (Sean's mom) even got to take a ride through the mud! (poor Kelly, I wouldn't trust riding in a vehicle with Big Josh!). We truly had a blast there and it was nice to be able to smile that much. Along with all the fun, memories, and friends... The Deater's also raised close to $2,400 to put toward Sean's funeral cost!! What a huge amount of stress taken away having that help! Thank you!!!! Last night Mel came over to bring me a scrapbook that she had put together from the mud run. It is the greatest thing anyone could have ever done for me and the girls and it is something we will always have to remind us all how much we love and miss Sean and what a great, outgoing guy he was! There were tons of photos and videos taken of the whole event-- I cannot wait to get some so I can post them here!
It is so hard to believe Sean has been gone for a month now. It has been the busiest yet longest month of my life. I hate being alone, I try to stay busy, but there is only so much I can do. The girls are doing great, Addie still talks about her dadda everyday. My friends continue to be here for me every single day and I am quite thankful for that as I don't know what I would do without them! Right now I am just wishing summer would last forever...
Stay tuned for photos-- I am hoping to have them up before the end of the week!!
Love to all, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!

~nicole~