Monday, December 8, 2008

here goes nothin!!

Wow! Has it been a long time since I have updated... So much has been going on since I last updated. We have made it through so much these past 4 months plus. We celebrated Sean's 25th birthday on Oct. 9th--that day started out soooo hard. The girls and I along with Will, Kelly and Josh all went over to the cemetery that day, so the girls could release some birthday balloons up to heaven for Sean. Addie loved it, she was so excited to send messages up to her daddy. Later on that night, one of the girls from daycare took Addie and Ella over night, so I was able to just spend time with the guys. We spent the night just having fun and doing the things Sean would have loved to do... Then halloween--I remember last year on halloween, it was shortly after Sean had started his chemo, so he only made it to a few places before he ended up just taking Ella home (she had crashed anyways before we even started trick or treating!) while Addie and I finished up our night or trick or treating. So, this was sort of like Ella's first halloween--she loved it! Josh came along with the girls and I to help out and I was so proud of how well the behaved out there! Then of course Thanksgiving... this year I decided to host our HUGE family Thanksgiving--I must say it was a bit overwhelming and I had even come down with the flu or something the night before, but it really was nice to have the distraction keeping busy. We even had an incident of the house catching on fire the night before! Now it is December. AHHHH!! December! I can say that all of these holidays are definitely bringing on a bit of stress and anxiety... I am not sure what the plans are for Christmas yet--just that I will be going to my mom's family Christmas party on Christmas Eve, but no plans for Christmas day at the moment. My friends have been so great these past four months, I honestly do not know how I would have survived without them! On Saturday, they all came along with the girls and I to pick out a Christmas tree, and they will hopefully be coming over Wednesday to help decorate it... We have been doing a dinner night here, at my house every Wednesday night and every week I look forward to that night to be able to be with the best group ever. I had never thought that I would be in a group of friends as close as ours even though we are "all grown up now".
The girls have been doing ok. Ella talks up a storm, ever since she was able to learn one word, she has not stopped talking! We ventured a little into the potty training, but were not getting to far with that! She is also still hooked on her binky--I was always the one to say I would never let a toddler walk around with a binky in their mouth! but unfortunately, it wasa huge security thing for and after all she has been through, I do not think it would be appropriate to take it away from her quite yet--so I guess I will more then likely have a two year old walking around with a binky in her mouth! Poor Ella has had the flu for the past few days now and has been throwing up everyday all day--she is such a good sport about it though, she does not cry when she throws up, she just gets this disgusted look on her face and says "yuk, I'm sick, yuk" in her tiny little voice! Addie--she is the smartest 3 year old ever, I swear! She just finished counting to 100 for me a few minutes ago! 100~WOW! She has been so interested in learning to read lately, anytime someone comes over that has writing on their shirt or something she has to spell it out... She knows how to write all of the letters of the alphabet and she is working on how to sound the letters out now. She asks so many questions constantly--and not just the 'why' phase, but she really gets into detail-- "mom, why does it snow? why is the snow white? why is the snow wet?" and it goes on and on and on!
Sooo.... after we manage to make it through Christmas, then we have New Years, then Addie's birthday... and the list goes on! We have all been trying to be happy though, as much as we miss Sean, our lives still have to continue. I guess I better get going to bed here soon now, I have to be up early for work and it looks like I am going to have to head out extra early because of the snow storm! I will post tons of photos here as soon as I can--they are all on my computer, which is out of commission at the moment, so I am stuck using Sean's Mac, which I have no clue how to even upload photos onto... so stay tuned! thanks.

~nicole~